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Boom

2009-03-26T16:09:35Z

It had sounded like someone kicked in every door into and in my house simultaneously- wish I had seen it.

http://www.aikenstandard.com/Local/0321-boom

Ambition

2009-03-17T06:12:28Z

Over the last week I've had the honor of jamming out with someone I've known and have worked with on and off for the last 5 years. He's better than me but has been playing longer and has the mind set and style of a lead guitarist so it's okay. This is the first time I've ever played with someone for more than 30 minutes that had any talent.

Very nice.

We shared good rythm and ideas which led to a shared dream of ours that we should have tackled a decade ago: being in a band. You know those kids that dream of being in the MLB or NFL? Yeah, fuck that; I wanted to be in a band, writing lyrics and helping on vocals. Well, if this goes well it will happen.
I don't initially have dreams and illusions of gradeur and it will take alot to get my feet off the ground but my guitarist partner wants to go as far as the industry and people will let us. Anyhow, realistic expectations and all aside, I have a question.
We are not set on a certain sound. While we want to stay in the genre of rock we would love to switch it up as often as possible.
The question is this: When you listen to a band you've never heard before, what is it that catches your ear an makes you initially love or hate it? Is it the pop/hop trick of a hook? A good beat? Lyrics? A specific tempo or style on a specific instrument?
I'll answer my own question first: Vocals and the rythm. If the rythm is tight (generally bass and drums, and/or the rythm guitar) and the vocals (and sometimes lead guitar) fill in the breaks and kill the repetitivness of the rythm so you don't realise you've just heard the same riff 15 times in a song chances are I'll like it. I'm also a sucker for a bluesy lead guitar (Guns and Roses, All That Remains).

Late Feb

2009-02-26T03:39:29Z

Not much to report on at all but I wanted to live up to posting weekly.

-edits, appologizes-

Misunderstandings are common enough, especially when my backwards train of thought is involved. Letting it go!

Rock out with your Meeks out

2009-02-17T05:52:24Z

The show was very good.

It started with the local act of Edison Project whom you could probably check out somewhere online. The singer and rythm guitarist were quite possibly the most boring people I've ever seen on stage, though, but the lead and drummer more than made up for it by being crazy as shit. They sounded pretty solid, too.
If Days comes around, I suggest you go see them. I really suggest you listen to more of their stuff than the first album, as well, as it's probably his weakest in spite of crowd appeal. The set list fairly mixed new stuff and old stuff seemlessly (the only time Meeks stopped playing was to yell at the apparently incompetant sound tech and to show off the tatoo he said he got in Augusta last time he played here). If you like drums or acoustic guitar then you MUST see them and Meeks is a god with an acoustic and the drums are more powerful and complex then I've ever heard outside of maybe Slipknot (Rush can suck on my...). It's mostly an acoustic show (electric acoustic) with Meeks choosing from 1 of 5 acoustic guitars set behind him while the bassist swapped between a massive acoustic bass and a good ol' electric.
It's not a show to go to if you want to bounce around or mosh- it IS a show to go to if you want to lose yourself mentally and emotionally to what is and always been a expertly produced unique rock sound.
I wasn't expecting to hear Dancing With the Wind as it's so complex and filled with god-knows-how-many instruments but he at least suprised me with one of my favorite songs, doing a good 75% of it solo.
Anyway, I am very pleased as my dragon will attest to.

Muse/ic

2009-02-16T20:41:56Z

I went to a local chain media store Sunday in hopes of finding a couple things: Days of the New's Red album and Chinese Democracy. I was doubly dissapointed in a temporary fashion.
1) I should have realised through my DotN research to know that the album I was looking for was out of print- it would be hard to find it new anywhere, it seems.
2) No Chinese Democracy. That really confused me, especially when the clerk was certain that they weren't just out- they didn't carry it. HATERS!

Why the hell isn't there an independant, little music store in this town?

I ended up getting two bands I've heard a little of but havn't ever delved deeply into any of their work. Hurt's Vol.1 and Stone Sour's Come Whatever May. I'd recommend either to anyone who likes good ol' rock. Both albums range from light to really heavy with a very strong taste of originality, sincerity, and a song-writer's style.

I'm out to see Days of the New in an hour or so. Wee!

re: What happened to the simplicity of friendship...

2009-02-15T06:45:31Z

I didn't want to bombard a freind's post with a reply that was more than me offering an answer to a question. The question got me thinking, however, and I found myself describing the foundation to how I stay above the water and remain happy and content so often lately.
The question was: "What happened to the simplicity of friendship and love that's so easily given when we are young? Why is it that when we get older, we're eager to complicate everything so frakking much?"

The simplistic lifestyle of being young can't maintain itself in an adult lifestyle. As more is added onto your life it simply gets more complicated and strings are attached to your new acquaintance or friend depending on factors such as their acquaintances and possibly places like a job if you met them there. It's hard to socialize without strings because it's part of your memory of them. Complications arise when strings intersect from different people- even if you try to live without complications someone else can bring them to your doorstep.

I've been doing my best to live a simple, happy (hedonistic?) lifestyle over the last couple years and it takes me a sort of detachment from things that should probably matter. I keep myself as happy as I can without delving into too much selfishness and treat those around me well if they do me the same kindness. I suppose I don't offer any perks to being my friend (I don't give up anything but my time and attention) so it's difficult to attract people that want to attach an unwanted string.
It seems to work for me. Never gonna grow up if I can keep this up. Never going to grow rich, powerful, or important, either (as strings and networking and complications are necesary for that) but none of that is a goal of mine. My goal is to be happy and the lack of complications and drama keeps me that way.

Feb

2009-02-14T04:09:35Z

There's a lot to catch up on and lots of things change in one's psyche over a few months when dealing with things on a daily basis.
I've moved on from Demono's and am doing my best to help a local pizza place beef up. I found that I'd need training for the Domino's GM position: I got thrown into a spot where I had no-one under me to have 10-15 people who didn't give a shit that I had to depend on. It didn't go well and I never believed in anxiety attacks until my last couple of months with them. I took a pay cut but I'm so much happier where I am now.
I thought that updating this with my phone would make it easier to do since my computer has died on me after about 5 faithful and strong years (I decided on New Years Day to send it off with a literal bang that involved many fireworks); however, my pre-paid carrier isn't loved by LJ. If anyone knows what carrier Virgin Mobile works off of let me know, eh? What searching I did told me Sprint but that's not working. My phone WAS running Yahoo IM for about a week but now it's not. I'm certain I can get it working again shortly.

My life is as undramatic as ever- exactly how I want it- so there isn't many changes to report. I know there are a couple people out there that STILL check up on this and I'll try not to lead you on by telling you that I'll update this more often. Once a week on the weekend I'll do this for you; escpecially for family, whom I've pretty much estranged by making the choices I did by moving here in South Carolina. Yay for low cost of living!

Before I get off here I'll make sure to enable non-user posting, too, so those who don't want to sign up are welcome to post however they wish. If you want my phone number (and I know you) to text or chat that would be a much smoother and easier way to contact and catch up with me. E-mail me for it! j.psuedin@gmail.com or xbox me: HappyMurderTime

Seeing Days of the New on Monday. It will rock me.

Now on to what I always loved to do on my LJ: hate or love on music. Along with me losing my computer went the unsalvagable harddrives and so much music and the ability to find new music at the drop of a fraction of a gig. I'm buying a CD a paycheck and I'll let you know my opinion of it is with a little review. I'm also forced to listen to the local radio station (www.95rock.com) which could be ALOT worse. I'll probably bring up setlist changes as I hear them and tell you what I think of them; mind you, most opinions are based on the SINGLES and RADIO PLAY.
Frowning Example: Saving Abel is being overplayed here since they came to town at the end of last year. I'm sorry, they're terrible. Forced to write nothing but balads because their sluggish instrument-players couldn't play fast enough to impress a slug. I've never gotten excited about some dude whining about his relationship or revelling in the beauty of intimacy and that's all they have to offer. 18 Days, I think the name of the most recent song is, is the biggest piece of garbage I've heard on the radio in over a year and I've heard Hoobastank's My Turn (I think). Someone call Hooba a WHAAAAAmbulance. Fuck off and do something if you want it to be your turn. And you know what? Not everyone gets a turn- you guys did and now it's over. Please, stop.
Smiling Example: My radio station put All That Remains' Two Weeks on their playlist. Granted, it's the most radio-friendly thing they've done in... I think... EVER and could be a sign for haters to start calling them sell-outs but it's still rocking and a step in the right direction for a southern rock station. Papa Roach's Hollywood Whore sounds rockin' and blows Nickleback's piece of Mouth right up their Canukian asses. Oh, yeah, and I've heard both of XXXX n' RoseX' singles and I like them. Alot. Pretty sure Chinese Democracy will be my next purchase. You just have to stop hating Axel, stop looking for Slash, and look at the work in a fresh way that isn't laden with decades of familiarity.

Been a while...

2008-06-04T04:15:30Z

So, 'nuff said on the subject. I'll update this really quick before I head out for the night and let you guys know what I've been up to.

1. General Manager position in the store I've been working at 5 years is mine and I've been doing really well for about a month so far. This was beyond my goal years ago when I wanted management experience. I can honestly say that I've managed to get myself a good-paying comfortable, relatively easy job with no more than a shitty SC high school diploma. I'm not quite sure if I should be proud for kicking the idea of college in the balls and getting away with it but every one has to find their own path, right?

2. Still rocking out. My primary source of enjoyment is still music and I've finally decided to learn to play. Doing well at practicing bass, singing, and shortly small-time production. I don't want to smell pizza for the rest of my life and music drives me.

3. Games n' Smoke pass the time when my fingers are raped by thick wound steel strings. DOTA, CoD4 (ps3), and Rock Band are my crutches here. Man, you shoulda seen some of that cush...

psuedin @ 2007-05-03T03:49:00

2007-05-03T07:51:36Z

Well, I'm up for another management position, about 15 minutes from here. I'll hear more probably as July starts creeping up on us. It's something I really want to get my hands on and well, I'm working my ass off for it. I can't say I'll be happy if this falls through considering the owner of our francises specifically brought my name up to my GM. Shit, if it doesn't go through it's about time for me to get a new job. I'm seriously sick of not going anywhere AND having to put up with my manipulative GM. Meh. More later.

In progress ^^

2007-04-18T07:50:29Z

The mirror is fixed but
The image is still broken
Shattered in two, three, four
But it doesn't really matter anymore
I am what I am and I won't hide
How fucked up and broken
I've been all my life

Well-adjusted I am in the most apathetic way
I love my family every neglectful day
Sometimes I just want to run the fuck away
I talk about Hate like I do it every day
Love, to me, is past for now: wouldn't stay
And in the end I'm worthless here
'Cause the ideals of the world aren't mine to sway

April? April.

2007-04-17T07:35:16Z

Another flawless payment under my belt and now an attempt to stop smoking; mostly for money's sake. I still need to save for my Detroit vacation. Further update was 9 pounds last month: I have one more appointment before the vacation.

I'm loving the dropping of my weight. Starting to finally see and feel the difference and I like it. I'd love to start excersizing like I should but it's boring as hell. Love to find a partner to maybe to some weight training with. Hard to find such a thing in my circle, though.

Anyhoo, that's about it. Still not about much but if you're familiar with last.fm I've subscribed: http://www.last.fm/user/psuedin

psuedin @ 2007-03-25T23:55:00

2007-03-26T04:05:51Z

I'd promise to be more active but I might break that promise. I've been enjoying the company of local friends very recently and working full-time at the Domihoe's. Being treated well in both aspects. I'll be heading up to Michigan this summer for my brother's wedding, too! I might have a day to spare if someone's in the Sterling Heights area and wants to say Hi!

Anyway, here's the update:
My mother and I have moved into a two-bedroom house. No more living room floor.
Havn't missed a payment towards my credit counselor. Still a long way to go.
Lost, I think, a total of 12 pounds since I started seeing a nutritionist 3 months ago (?). I could be following my diet better but what I'm doing is working fine for us both, apparently.
Work is alright; running shifts again and being praised for it often. Income is pretty good.
30% to goal on saving for the Michigan trip.
Beating the shit out of Guitar Hero (1&2) on expert now. I know you care. ;)
I'm torn between trance and techno-rock (ala GitS OST) or harder and faster metal (All That Remains, In Flames) as my current musical preference.

Well, I'm finding myself with some spare time now and I feel I have the control to spend some time with my old, banned vice: FFRP. If someone out there is willing to take up this old orphan for a few days a week of playage lemme know.

I suppose I'm open for any questions and assaults so it's been so long.

Winter Update

2006-12-12T08:52:03Z

So, after the year-review thing I just did I realised just how much I've been neglecting this thing, even now that I'm in a more stable position. It's time to update things that I havn't annouced:

I'm working at Domino's again, living on my mother's living room floor. All of the irritations I felt in the past have been lost and the conditions are much more favorable; however, I still need my own place again which might not be happening any time soon honestly. I'm going to a debt counselor friday to get rid of some old debts I've ignored since the first year I moved here: about $6,000 worth. That and my credit might stop me from getting a place, no matter how much income I get aside. Wednesday I'm seeing a deitician to see what concrete proof there is that I've been losing weight (I know I've lost alot since Columbia) and learn how to keep losing it, though work and eating much more healthily is obviously at work. My father will be joyed to know I've pretty much stopped drinking pop. I'm down to half a pack of smokes a day.

I physically feel alright, as almost always. I mentally feel anxious at some changes this week will make but I can only try to be optimistic about how much positivity may come of these changes in the long run. Emotionally, I'm alright if not still a little numb. I'll try to post more here since I know at least a couple people look forward to seeing how I'm doing.

psuedin @ 2006-12-12T03:42:00

2006-12-12T08:42:50Z

Go to your Calendar and find the first entry for each month of 2006 (not including memes of course). Post the first line/sentence of it in your journal, and that's your "Year in Review."

January: Well, I've had alot of problems merging over to my wireless but I think I finally got it. ( Feeling: good
Hearing: FFIV Piano Collection - Tina)

February: So, I walked into my kitchen five minutes ago and there was a fuckin' gecko. ( Feeling: excited)

March: The light was silvering: lustrous, white, soft, blinding. It ran up the length of the short, curved piece of steel like a glint of sunlight at just the right angle, casting reflections that burnt like Hellfire upon the decaying flesh it came in contact with; though, the nature of was quite the antithesis of such demonic power.(Feeling: irritated
Hearing: TFK, "Move" / Demon Hunter, "Through the Black")

April: So, I finished watching Samurai Champloo after uh, ACQUIRING the whole series. (Feeling: cheerful)

May: If you jump to conclusions, if you don't investigate someone else's goals, if you think the world revolves around you and your solipsistic lifestyle you WILL be burned. (Feeling: cynical
Hearing: Lacuna Coil, "Senzafine")

June: Everything I've experienced, all the time I've spent seems so pale in comparison to all that is Crista. (Feeling: ecstatic)

July: I'm ecstatically happy. (Feeling: happy
Hearing: The Velvet Underground & Crista!)

August: Sinch's independant stuff is wicked good. ( Feeling: rockin'
Hearing: Sinch, "Sometimes")

September: I've been asked to post. ( Feeling: scared)

October: Nine days ago I was getting ready to end the weekend with more job-hunting.

November: The last year for me has been interesting. (Hearing: Anathema, "Panic")

December: (No post)

Thief

2006-12-06T07:34:14Z

Stolen from Lee for filler:

1. How tall are you barefoot?
6'2"

2. Have you ever smoked heroin?
No.

3. Do you own a gun?
No.

(Where did 4 and 5 go ?)

6. What do you think of hot dogs?
Disgusting.

7. What’s your favorite Christmas song?
Christmas Eve

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Milk

9. Can you do push ups?
No

10. Is your bathroom clean?
Yes; granted, it's not MY bathroom.

11. What's your favorite piece of jewelry?
I don't wear any. As for on others, necklaces?

13. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?
Chlorophorm. You know I'm kidding 'cause I can't spell it properly.

14. Do you own a knife?
Of course! How else can you spread butter!

15. Do you have A.D.D.?
I can't say I do.

16. Middle Name?
Dean

17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment?
I prefer Media Monkey to Winamp.
http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/shinedown/dream.html
It's warm.

19. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink:
Milk
Lemonade
Water

20. What time did you wake up today?
2pm

22. Current worry?
"Just how long will it take to pay off my old debt?"

23. Current hate?
Lack of privacy.

24. Favorite place to be?
Home.

25. Least favorite place to be?
Home.

26. Where would you like to go?
I'm comfortable in this chair.

27. Do you own slippers?
No.

28. What shirt are you wearing?
I am wearing no shirt.

29. Do you burn or tan?
Tan.

30. Favorite color(s)?
Blue, Silver, Black

31. Would you be a pirate?
WOULD I? Bitch, I just downloaded 2 anime series, two seasons of TV series, and I just got done deleting about 4 movies.

32. What is your favorite holiday?
Holloween.

33. What songs do you sing in the shower?
I don't.

34. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
Dinosaurs. For real.

35. What's in your pockets right now?
Lint.

36. Last thing that made you laugh?
Zero no Tsukaima

37. Best bed sheets you had as a child?
Whatever wasn't cotton. I still think I'm allergic...

38. Worst injury you've ever had?
I was told I broke my nose once when I was little, I even remember when it happened but I don't remember it ever happening. It would honestly have to be a tie between getting the flesh of a knuckle shaved off by hedge shears to the ligament or the general super-bruising of my car accident. I felt stiff and sore for a month.

40. Are your parents still together?
Nope.

41. Who is your loudest friend?
Robert

42. Who is your most silent friend?
Mitch

43. Does someone have a crush on you?
If it was a crush, wouldn't the term "crush" be pretty much null and void, or not? Anyhow, no, no crushes.

44. Do you wish on shooting stars?
I like Lee's answer: "Wishing doesn't work."
Yes, I have. No, it doesn't work. ;)

45. What is your favorite book?
Book? Try the Coldfire Trilogy

46. What is your fav. Candy?
Baby Ruths or Carefree gum.

47. What song do/did you want played at your wedding?
Posession

48. How is the weather outside right now?
Cold, clear sky.

49. What were you doing 12 AM last night?
Getting home from work.

50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
"Shit, it's 2pm?!"

psuedin @ 2006-11-20T11:29:00

2006-11-20T16:29:12Z

My immediate reaction to Audioslave's Revalations: couldn't listen to an entire song all the way through. Most didn't get through the first chorus. What a dissapointment! Most songs are very repetitive in sound and lyrics... and while, sure, the music is absolutely badass at times but there's only so many times I can hear the same badass sound in a 30-second period. Not only that, Cornell has seemed to become comfortable settling for a raspy, lazy vocal approach for nearly every fucking song. The times he breaks this mold is predictable and unimpressive; which could just be studio-production shit, but that's no excuse for Cornell sounding like utter crap. Some guitar solos are cool as ever?

BOOOO. >:|

psuedin @ 2006-11-17T15:51:00

2006-11-17T20:51:49Z

I've got the Gizmo Project for LJ. Feel free to harass me if you want. I'm going to work now!

Retirement

2006-11-12T06:25:36Z

So, I think I'm going to officially retire myself from the FFRP world. There's a number of reasons that I won't get into; nor do I immediately want to post why this is coming about NOW. Anyhow, I want to say a few things before continuing my thoughts on this subject:
THANK YOU for everyone I've ever played with, no matter how much I might not have gotten along with you OOC. A double thank-you to Zarak,Kat, and Caerdwyn for hosting the best and most stable places to perform this "hobby." I shouldn't call it so, it's almost a fucking lifestyle when you get down to it. I doubt either of you will read this or really understand why the big thanks is there; and Kat, thank-you for being understanding about me moving on with your BRI. I hope I retained some integrity in spite of growing it to the size it was when I left. There are more memorable people and characters I could go more deeply into positively or negatively but that would take ages and I don't want anyone to feel left out. Seriously, THANK YOU.
Anyhow, in all my years I had three main characters. When I acquire some money I will be throwing up a sort of memorial to these characters with a bit of history and I'll be commissioning high-queality pieces for these. If anyone out there wants to contribute with a donation, I'm not stopping you. I don't really care if you knew the characters well or not, but get in touch with me for some descriptive information. Taleron and Sidian, expect some of this coming your way if you don't mind the commissions. You're the best fantasy artists I'm on a friends-acquaintence level with.
These are the three characters I'm working with and hell, why not some theme music?
Core Drakian Fyce/Silveran (CoreDrake)- silver dragon of a varient type: Sisters of Mercy, "This Corrosion"
Hokwing Sufan-Fyce (Hokwing)- half-silver dragon: Shinedown, "Burning Bright"
Caepher Renplixe (Dejicere)- tiefling life-mage: AFI, "God Called In Sick Today"

That's about it for now.

psuedin @ 2006-10-24T11:34:00

2006-10-24T15:48:49Z

Nine days ago I was getting ready to end the weekend with more job-hunting. Havn't really had luck on that and this situation gets scarier and scarier.
Eight days ago I got an e-mail that pretty much crashed that idea for the day. Not sure if anything will be done with it, even now.
Six days ago my grand-father died at the age of 87. He was a great man and while I havn't been close to him recently I was very much-so in the past. I've not experienced death in my family since I've become and adult and can comprehend it completely.
I was pretty much out of comission till the weekend. After phone conversations with multiple people, some help I've recieved, and pretty much a stagnantly bad position I'm still lingering in the same awful mood that's been plaguing me for over a month, only compounded by last week's trouble.

I went job searching yesterday. I got a sprained ankle pretty early on... joyus.

No, the calling doesn't bother me. No, I don't mind putting my things aside. I do mind being doubted and critisized; however, when I'm beating the shit out of myself enough to make whatever you say pale in comparison. Just don't waste time or sour what could actually be pleasantly spent time with it.

Sorry I can't be chipper and happy. This is MY journal and you're not always going to get what you ask for.

psuedin @ 2006-09-25T19:45:00

2006-09-26T00:09:51Z

Go to your music player of choice and put it on shuffle.
Say the following questions aloud, and press play.
Use the song titles that come up to answer each question.
NO CHEATING.

How does the world see me?
Faith No More - Why Do You Bother? (I know why I took this now, it's to be emo!)

Will I have a happy life?
NiN - Pinion (...)

What do people really think of me?
VNV Nation - Foreword (Ermm... the first option, please.)

Do people secretly lust after me?
Soil - Pride (Does this mean that I think so?)

How can I make myself happy?
Chris Cornell - Sweet Euphoria (accurate, I think, in how I view the song)

What should I do with my life?
LIVE - T.B.D. (See? All emo on me. I thought this would depress me but the hillarity of this bullshit is amusing. So you want me to die, huh?)

Will I ever have children?
Audioslave - Light My Way (Signs point to yes)

What is some good advice for me?
Tool - The Grudge (Grr!)

What do I think my theme song is?
Lacuna Coil - Fragile (This thing must be fucking rigged, lol)

What does everyone else think my theme song is?
VNV Nation - Tempest (Oooh.)

What song will play at my funeral?
GnR - Don't Cry

What type of men/women do I like?
NiN - With Teeth (rofflecopters)

What is my day going to be like?
Incubus - Battlestar Scralatchtica (Funky!)

Why am I here?
Fuel - Won't Back Down (Grr!)

What will people remember me for?
Panic at the Disco - There's a Good Reason... (Cocky swagger? Chuckling at other's discomfort?)

What song will I get stuck in my head tomorrow?
Downface - Alone (I can live with that.)

Are there people outside waiting to take me away?
F11 - Stay and Drown (Just one.)

What will this year be all about?
LIVE - Operation Spirit (Kindasortayeahalready)

Why do I ever was born?
QueensRyche - The Roads to Madness (Fuck yeah!)

With Accompany of which song was I made?
QueensRyche - I Don't Believe In Love (*chokes, dies, twitches, laughs, twitches some more*)

What song will be played on my wedding?
Remy Zero - Life in Rain (<3)

For what would I kill someone?
NiN - Terrible Lie (Fuck yea, blame God!)

What is forbidden on LJ?
VNV Nation - Genesis

What is most precious in my room?
In Flames - Man Made God (I don't have a guitar :/)

With what song am I falling asleep with?
Incubus - Stetllar (Wouldn't have a choice on sleeping.)

With what song did I lose my verginity?
Audioslave - Yesterday to Tomarrow (Interesting but wrong.)

What will be my last thoguht before I die?
LIVE - White Discussion (Oh, shit. I'm so going to get myself killed with my mouth.)

Best song to describe my schoolmates?
n/a, I don't go to school

I feel so...?
Panic! - Sins, Not Tragedies (Yeah, about that...)

Best song to describe my hidden sexuality.
Sinch - Stained (Now, I'm sure none of you have ever heard this song. Apparently my hidden sexuality is very very sad.)

Of what am I afraid?
Audioslave - Show Me How To Live (Appropriate!)

My Favorite Quote.
Sarah McLachlan - Possession (Towards a certain someone, yes.)

I like to...?
Sinch - Seven (I wanna be used, baby?!)

I wanna ... you.
Remy Zero - Smile (?)

... me.
Incubus - Megalomaniac (??)

What I wanna do now.
Sinch - Overthink (I already aaaaaaaam!)

What do you actually desire?
Danzig - Sistinas (No comment other than this. :|)

What would I do to take over the world?
Fuel - Quarter (Woot.)

What is your greatest desire?
FNM - Be Aggressive (Sweet jesus the meme is sooooo right! XD)

I have ... in my pants.
Depeche Mode - Enjoy the Silence (Don't talk to it.)

Want to have for X-mas.
GnR - Don't Damn Me... (...when I speak a piece of mind 'cause silence isn't golden when I'm holding it inside. Cause I'm staying here for Christmas and I don't care 'bout your presents!) That felt good!

I like to lick...?
FNM - Jim (I like to lick JIM apparently)

I would tell ... my first love.
Sinch - Dirty (I don't understand the meme part.)

Wanna Screw...?
AFI - Miss Murder (...)

Why am I still writing this stupid questionnair?
LIVE - Bring the People Together (EVERYONE! LOOK AT ME! WWOWOOOWOWOOOOOOO?!)

What number is this song?
787.

LTNS

2006-09-25T23:01:04Z

I've been asked to post.

I havn't posted because I didn't want to constantly feel like a loser, saying I don't have a job yet. I'm pretty much broke and have been eating rice for the last two days. I've put in applications to everything walkable, constantly called back to places until I've gotten rude responses and have only gotten one interview. It went well and I'm HOPING I get a call back later this week like he said he'd do. If I can scrape by a little longer I can reapply at some places that have blown me off.

My roomie and I get along fine, though he's a little annoying with his cat. My sleeping schedule is fucked up due to lack of work and general depression due to the whole failure thing. I don't know if I want to post again if things just get worse due to time and while you might think I might appreciate a "It'll get better," just don't. I seriously don't need to be humored.

psuedin @ 2006-08-21T06:20:00

2006-08-21T10:35:23Z

Firstly, I'm moving to Columbia because I have an old (and new) friend who could use a roomie and I sure as Hell have had no luck in Aiken. Domino's and this place, in spite of the awesome people I've met, have really sucked me into a void that seems like it would never let go. I had to break free and this is it. I'm moving today, sometime in the afternoon.

Secondly, I'm beginning to like live recordings more. Not necessarily LIVE stuff but raw recordings that havn't been overproduced. The first two Sinch albums are a good example, and so is Evanescence's Anywhere But Home. I used to bitch about the fact the woman's voice is HEAVILY produced. I used to think it was 'cause she didn't have one. Well, apparently, people just expect a Mclachlan or Amos-perfect voice from a woman in rock but guys can sound like shit, if the sound is appropriate. Well, after listening to a live album of Evanescence I still have to shake my fist in the air at the production-percentage on the studio-recorded albums. She has a good voice, a very cool voice. Most of which the procuding extinguishes. This is also the case for Shinedown; his voice is mind-blowing recorded live. His albums aren't impressive though, vocally, after a few listens. Eh.

Here's some mildly appropriate lyrics! :D

Dead Sentinels

Now I'm standing on my own again
What a feeling to let go of something
Blood from the vein keeps me captive here and ashamed,
I'm on the wire losing sight of what I once truly desired
And I don't know, why I even try when my sheltered heart lives a lie

Now I'm dancing on my own two feet,
What a feeling, to be let down
Denied the controls- all the tension has taken it's toll,
I, I'm on fire losing sight of what I once truly deserved
And I don't know why I even try when my sheltered heart lives a lie
I'm living a lie, I'm leaving your lives!

Hide from the clones all the sentences have gone cold
Talk it gets cheap, turn the volume down and laugh yourself to sleep
And I don't know why I even try
When my sheltered heart lives a lie
I'm cutting all ties from leading your life, lies.

psuedin @ 2006-08-11T00:21:00

2006-08-11T04:21:50Z

Moving to Columbia. More later-

psuedin @ 2006-08-04T06:06:00

2006-08-04T10:09:06Z

Myspace is evil; utterly and completely. Don't get me wrong, I want it to die.

Still, I've run into -2- old friends from it so far. Granted, I found 3 through LJ.
LJ > Myspace, proof right there.

psuedin @ 2006-08-02T07:10:00

2006-08-02T11:13:36Z

Seems like every time I look at the weather, it's cooler here in Aiken then it is up north (specifically Detroit). I was used to the blistering hot days on occasion where it gets hotter up there than it can ever dream of down south but it's a common occurance. It's not even the high 90's and 100's that I remember. It's 80's and low 90's, the common temperatures down here. I am perplexed and sleepy.

I think I'll perplex now.